That's a Bit Gay!

Note to self: Don't attract Jennifer Aniston's bad luck

Recently I’ve done something I don’t do regularly. No, it’s not topping, fisting, or sleeping with women [let’s be honest – none of these are likely]. It’s dating someone I’m actually interested in… and it really freaked the HELL out of me. Who knew seeing someone you were interested in would be so… mind scrambling?

You see, watching movies, TV shows and celebrities makes dating and starting a relationship look so easy. But all we have to do is look at poor Jennifer Aniston to see that it can make your life hell. GOD – reading about Jen’s love life makes you never want to date again! Oh Jen, how can one person have so much bad luck?

But what’s so scary? I think it’s what you find out about yourself when you start dating someone. For example, for some reason I become seriously jealous if my date checks out other guys and comments on their hotness. Apparently though, he’s not “suggesting a threesome” – but hey, he may as well. He’s got to have SOME kind of taste if he’s walking beside me… [come on, I’m not being totally serious].

Then there are the little things. The second guessing… Am I being too needy? Should I have not sent that text message? Should I call now? Am I being unrealistic? What the hell am I going to play from my iPod?! – JAMES – GET A FUCKING GRIP!

The thing I’m most scared of is letting myself be completely exposed. What if he finds out who I really am, and realises he’s not interested anymore. After mentioning this to a friend, I was told “James, if he’s reading your blog every week, I’m pretty sure he has a pretty fucking good idea of who you are…”

Good point. And after reading this one, I probably won’t be hearing from ANYONE in a while. But hey – I’m only human. Don’t we all feel this?